It’s me again (waves nervously) and I have a few things I wanted to talk to you about. The first thing we need to talk about is Reese’s story. For the past month I have been trying to write his book and I am getting absolutely nowhere. The problem is that I’m not feeling the characters yet, the urgent need to write their story, or seeing their story play out. What I can see play out quite vividly is Aidan’s story, Kale’s story and the next Historical NFH novel.
They’re freaking bugging me day and night while I’m struggling to get into Reese’s story. I picked Reese’s story to write, because I promised everyone that story and the first Anger Management which was also something that I just couldn’t get into. This does not mean that I will not write their stories, because I will. It just means they’re not the stories that need to be written right now.
To be honest, I could write Reese’s story. I could force it out, keep writing, keep forcing the storyline to go one way, but I would hate it and so would you. Although this is my job and the way that I feed my children and put clothes on their backs, this has never been a “job” for me. Writing has never felt like work to me before and the fact that it does right now with Reese’s story bothers me. It’s stressing me out and that only makes it worse. I will not publish a book that I hate or was forced, which is pretty much the same thing. When I write, I write to escape. It’s the reason that I started writing and why I continue to do it to this day.
I’d like to focus my attention on the books that are screaming at me to get them on paper and right now that’s Aidan’s book as the primary. I know a lot of you are waiting for this book and you’ll be happy with this change, but I also know a lot of you are waiting for Reese’s book, which was promised this year, but I honest to god think you’ll end up hating the book if I write it right now. I want to wait until the book is screaming at me to write it. It’s the way that I’ve been writing all along and I’d like to keep going that way. I won’t make any more promises of books like I did with Reese’s, because I hate breaking promises. I always do my best to keep my word and I hate that I am writing this email.
So, with that being said I am turning my attention to Aidan’s book and going to do my best to get the series back in line with Playing for Keeps and do the series proud.
The other thing that I will be writing right now is the second NFH historical. How am I doing this? Well, I’m doing it the same way that I started Lucifer’s book, on my phone 🙂
Not a lot of you know this, but I have two children with disabilities and I spend 15 to 20 hours a week sitting in chairs while my children go to therapy and their programs. That’s a lot of time to kill. So, what I do is pull out my iPhone, open the Word app and I write. It’s something that I will go into more detail later and something that I started doing to show aspiring writers who can never find time to write that it can be done pretty much anywhere.
For now, I am going to kill an hour working on Aidan’s book while I wait to wake my kids up for their appointments for the day.
I’m sorry if this decision is upsetting anyone, but in all honesty I did try for a month and a half, but I just couldn’t force it. I will do my best to keep my promises in the future.
When Reese’s story starts tormenting me, demanding to be written, I will write it as fast as humanly possible, making sure that it was worth the wait. That is the last promise that I will make on this book.